Speaking of Praying...

"I mentioned prayer in my previous post.  Well, I've been doing a lot of that lately.  And it's been a lot of kind of selfish prayer, at that.

You see, school has been out for approximately 3 weeks.  In that time, my house has been clean (every room all at the same time) exactly once--right after we got out of school, when we held Connor's birthday party.  I have gained about 5 pounds.  I have become completely nocturnal.  I have gone to the gym exactly 3 times (2 of which were yesterday and today).  I have watched the same episode of The New Adventures of Old Christine at least 3 times.

I have become incredibly lazy and nonproductive, and I don't like it.  And yet, I can't seem to stop myself.  This wouldn't be such a problem, except that I swore--no, promised--myself that this would be the summer that I would get everything done.  I would get all the closets cleaned out (which, in my defense, I actually do accomplish each summer).  I would get the scrap-booking caught up (this may just be the year that I get Riley's first birthday party done-you know, in honor of her 5th birthday).  I was going to ramp things up at the gym and actually do strength training (my marathon training plan starts the day I report back to school-gotta get ready to get ready for the big race!).  And, speaking of school, I have a TON of reading and planning to do for this coming school year.

Buuuutttt, it would appear that my motivation is lost.  It must be hidden in the back of one of those closets I have yet to clean out.

So, the past couple of evenings, I've been praying for motivation.  I've been praying to accomplish things.  And I think that God is answering my prayers.  I know He doesn't want me to be a sloth.  Maybe He just wants me to rest up a bit before I start hitting my massive to do list for the summer, though.  It's not often that I do actually take a rest.  My days during the school year are quite full.  I actually think that I am able to cram 26 hour's worth of stuff into a 24 hour day (I really have done it, I swear!).  But no one can operate like that all day, every day, all year long.  We all need a vacation--mentally, physically, emotionally.  I just took a 3 week vacation.  Now I need to get back to some sort of grind, even though it's not my normal grind. 

PS--To those of you wondering, "What were her kids doing while she was all sleeping and laying on the couch watching reruns of crappy TV shows?"  Don't worry, no Zustiak children were harmed in the making of this blog post.  They were either at summer school,  hanging with their dad, or they were in bed (because, they were sleeping while I was awake at 4 in the morning).  And I promise, I didn't completely ignore them.  I made plenty of time to do nothing with them, as well.