Altered State

So I've been taking this medication (topamax) to prevent my migraines for almost 2 full months now. It works wonderfully--I have had very few (maybe 2--and they haven't been nearly the scale of my normal ones) migraines since I've been on it.

However, the side effects are wearing me down. I can't focus. I can't find the words I want to use in speech or writing. I have much difficulty typing. My fingers and feet frequently fall asleep. All carbonated drinks taste bad (although that's starting to get better). I've lost 5-6 pounds (not necessarily a bad thing). I alternate between nausea and extreme hunger. (As far as I can tell, this medicine does its level best to simulate the first trimester of pregnancy--my very favorite time of life, EVER.) I have no energy. I can barely get myself out of bed in the morning. Lately, I have been incredibly crabby and short-tempered. Oh, maybe that's BECAUSE I CAN"T SLEEP! Last night it was 5 am before I eventually fell asleep on the couch. The night before that, it was at least 3 am.

This is getting to be ridiculous!

I am getting to the point where I can barely function. Thank heavens I'm not trying to teach right now. I have no idea how I would manage. The only way I've managed to do the little that I have accomplished this summer is because I have the world's best husband (sorry to those of you who are married, but I won the jackpot--you might have come in a very close second, but I got the best one), who has majorly taken up the slack for his dead-beat, medicated wife. If it weren't for him, I have no idea how I would have made it through this summer thus far.

I spent a good deal of my insomniac quality time last night reading up on side effects of this medication (for the 18 millionth time). Some people have listed sleep disturbances, but that was more for stuff like sleep walking, etc. and sleeping too much. A few did mention insomnia. I guess Monday I'll have to talk to my doctor.

Please say a couple prayers for me if you can spare some. I know there are probably a few more important things to pray for than my sleep habits, but my kiddos sure would like to have their mommy back--you know, the one who didn't snap every time their shoes didn't get put away immediately upon entering the house, the one who doesn't want to put her fist through a wall every time her daughter has an accident. Yeah, they'd probably prefer the Mommy from a few months ago, but with fewer migraines. Hmmm, how to get her back?